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Saturday, January 2, 2010Y

theres tears in my eyes when i wrote this post
cos to me.everything seems to b nt right at the moment
everything,
friendship.relationship.character,evrything

i was putting up a smile,which shows tat im fine,im ok,dun hv to worry abt me
but ,im not ,i just feel something really lack right now

im seeking god's face.but i cnt find it
im seeking his presence ,bt i cnt feel it
where r youy lord?...i really really need you god
you said when i search you with my whole heart,i shall find it

when evrything seems to really been soo messy ,
someone wrote this on msn to me :

even now

even when you think you can't feel him
believe in Him
you are right
when you say that everything on the earth
lacks
sometimes
even friendship
people u trust with everything
there would be imperfection
these are the times
you must really
cry out to God
for Him
he is perfect
just
be under his arms
his peace
his comfort
you know that despite everything
he loves you
and his love is perfect
even if the world is not
please, please
always rmbr his love
what he did for you
what he is doing for you
what he is going to do for you
His love
is right


the tears just really keep rolling down and down when i saw this
really ..i think,i dun have to always be a strong girl.i think ,this is the time for me to be weak girl for just 1 hour.just let my tears come down,no more holding back,no more using smiles to say tat im fine.

ends at Saturday, January 02, 2010